User blog:GazzaB9/Vent

I'm... slowly starting to lose interest in Fandom. And, I'll be honest, some of it is partly because I just don't really have ideas but another part is that I kinda... don't enjoy making pages anymore. Every time I think of something that I'm looking forward to, something happens around me that's completely out of my control and totally crushes whatever enjoyment I had for the project. And, I'll be honest, there's also a minor part that I have trouble focusing and that I make things with the expectation of people commenting on it. Both of those are my problem, I'm fully aware of that, don't worry.

And I don't want to see people coming in and saying something like "oh yeah, the wiki sucks now because blah blah blah", that's not what I'm saying. I love this wiki and I love a lot of the people on it. But, if I'm being honest, a lot of people on the wiki, even people I love, have some of the worst mindsets I've seen in my life. Whether it be trying to outcast somebody for a minor argument, constantly blowing up at the smallest of things, or constantly saying negative and borderline hurtful things and acting like they're the victim. And, you know what, that's probably the reason my interest in the site's fading.

I'm not sure if it's a me problem and nobody else feels this way or if I'm nowhere near the minority that I think I am and literally everyone's been feeling this way but I just really wanted to get that off my chest. And, Donaldo and Coolot, I know for a fact you think that line about things out of my control happening was about you and yes, part of it was, but a lot of the time it's actually an in real life thing that's killed my interest. Coolot, I also know that you have a tendency to say things like "block me" when people say things like this and I know it's probably not good coming from your best friend but please, don't blame yourself for any of this.

Anyway... I've been thinking this for a while but I've not really brought it up to anybody. Nobody's known this until now. Not really sure what's going to happen once I post this and it'll probably take me a good while to even build up the courage. Best case scenario, everybody understands and doesn't blame me for my feelings. Worst case scenario, I'm declared public enemy number one like Chris was when he started talking about his problems with the wiki. It's also possible nobody'll notice I even made this blog and it'll fade into obscurity. But, at any rate, thanks for reading this if you did. See you around.