I never loved you Cillian Darcy and I never will

 is a christmas and it's the fifth chapter of The Merge of Cillian Darcy. It marks the beginning of Cillian and Lorcan's journey and the ending of Cillian and Lindsay's relationship until The Final Showdown.

Plot
When the kids make their Christmas lists, Lindsay insists that they help by donating old goods. Scarlet refuses and insists on getting a job to buy her own gifts.

While helping out at the mission, Cillian finds that the residents eat better food than he gets at home and decides to pass himself off as homeless, telling Lindsay that he is volunteering at the shelter. He succeeds despite being recognized by Lorcan and makes the acquaintance of several of the residents where he spins a wild yarn about how he got into his predicament.

At the mall, Scarlet-Megan gets hired as a skimply-dressed elf and Danielle demands to get upgraded from Mrs. Claus to the role of Santa but is passed over in favor of Paul  which Danielle.

Michaela finds a sympathetic ear in Scarlet but when she points her to a job as Santa at a laundromat, Danielle turns her down, wanting the job at Grundle's. Paul uses his regular charm as Santa, telling the kids what they'll get regardless of what they want. Bolton recalls a special present Scarlet once wanted and Scarlet makes Tom a special sleigh out of her scooter. But due to being depressed over not getting her dream job, Paul gives up on Christmas for cheering Cillian up.

They help him out and take him under their wings. Cillian finds that Lindsay nominated his as a special angel due to his work at the shelter and his con job is exposed on television. Cillian becomes a pariah in town and tries to publicly apologize but makes things worse. As he wanders back to the shelter, he finds that the residents still accept him but the food has returned to the usual low standards. Lindsay and the kids walked away from Cillian. He decided to leave Rochdale to begin his journey to go after the one who his parents with a letter with that said. Cillian wrote a note that said GOODBYE FOREVER and jumped out of the window before Lindsay's parking in the drive way. She and the kids opened the door and Cillian run into the woods to escape from them. He calls Lorcan and meet him at the death island's beach which Lorcan happily agree and see each other in a month as Cillian begin his journey by catching the train.
 * Hey Lindsay... If you're reading this, I'm announcing we're now getting a divorce for a while. After what you want me to say, I'm going off on an journey to get revenge on the Killer. Lorcan's going to mind you and the kids while i'm away. But don't worry, i won't be long. I'm going to complete what i've began. I will always remember you. Love your now Ex-husband... Cillian Darcy.

Lindsay saw a note as Cillian wrote before he left. She begin to cry that Cillian has left her for a while.